Grace

Where to begin. Some people have this insane ability to set you off instantly. Right off the bat, you are just on edge, not necessarily mad, just on edge. When one is that kind of situation, they need to get out of it, so they can think straight. It will amaze you how much you have alienated and pushed away the people you care about. Yes, you may have or still care about that person, but is it worth all you have sacrificed? That is the big question. Is it worth it? If it is, then it is meant to be and nothing is worth losing what you have. but if it is not, what's the point of hurting everyone just to be unhappy? Then we come to the people you hurt in this distorted process. They are many, though not all of them will acknowledge that you have hurt them, but you have. They just kindly listen as you try to explain to them your mistakes, your wrongdoings. they nod and say what you want to hear, but you both know it will never be the same. This is the defining moment where you realize exactly who your true friends are, and also who you really are. It's sad that we have to wait for a time of peril or defeat to realize exactly how lost we became. Losing oneself is a lonely journey., but the journey in finding yourself again doesn't have to be. IF you learn to open up, and care again...amazing things will happen. Forgiveness is not thrown around lightly. It's called grace because if it is given to you...you don't deserve it. Someone loved you enough to let you back in their heart and their life. That is the happy ending. That is the fairy tale...because you don't see it everyday and when you do see it, it's one of the most beautiful things ever.